Believe and hope ...

This time , I always alone ... I'm thinking .. what can I do to pump my spirit ... my self intergrity , I don't want like this forever ... I don't want feel like a big loss.. ebven I always miss you My child , my baby .
You always be my light . Give me inspiration .. give me strong mind and thought .. to arrangge these world to be a better one . All family member want this situation in hold ,but by the way I feel like hopeless first time .
thanks to TM , I do meditation to fix my neuron system to recover ... and give stronger mind of thought.
I'm still wait your 40th day , wait and ... wait .

Sad story

2nd October 2008, 11.30 am, it's time I lost my child in mywife pregnancy , she's so cute, so beautifull , you are so pretty. I can't say any word again about you, Where are you now ? Hopely you're always fine and happy like your respond when I touch my wife belly . I remember we play classic music before with your magnificent respond from you. You love your brother Danta , your sister Aya, ...
We will never forget you , ... your memory with us is a big gift ... big bless for us.
From now, I will always call your name as "Dewi " , because you aye really dewi.

Mr Slow and balance

This small shell animal I take it from 10 cm distance , they walk very very slowly... , In some cases sometime they crack it because someone hit it with rock . Do you know how they balance the garden lifecycle ? . All grass , flower root and even big mangos need this little creature. They need their saliva ( like jelly) sticky , cause it's contain huge enzyme that need to lubricate the system that can open root pore even land pore. If this small animal did not found at garden , the life cycle won't finish and seems grass specially dry it self. I prove it already 8 years till now. I never move these animal from my garden . Even I gave them with more food come from rice , waste kitchen product and others.
I never use syntetic fertiliser , so this is like organic fertiliser. Maybe in other side they can destroy your colour full flower but not at all, they only want to eat, that's the fact.